Over the rainbow part 2
This is a follow on post from my previous post about pet loss. If you're an instagram follower Hello! you will know already about my new spontaneous piggies addition Albert. The truth is this week i had a bit of a rubbish week at work and so i hadn't seen as much of my new baby as i wanted. We have squeezed in a 6am cuddled and a night time cuddle but i haven't been in the house very much with him. So now its the weekend i spent the day packing orders and cuddling all of the piggies. Albert has a character like my Freddie and has a similar look in his eye, in fact in the many guinea pigs I've owned i can never recall such a young piggie being so tame and characterful, even Freddie at his age was a little shy. Today Albert had 5 cuddles today and each time he wanted to be cuddled more! and he really has been a little ray of sunshine.
So after my day of piggies cuddles and highlights i suddenly felt tears in my eyes again and had a good cry, a feeling i suppose of guilt! How could i be feeling happy without Freddie? a feeling that it is wrong to love Albert so much because it's betraying Freddies memory? I thought if I'm feeling this theres probably plenty of other people feeling like this too. So i wanted to do a post somewhere away from the highlight showcase of Instagram.
It has been 152days since i lost my darling boy Freddie. Not a day goes by where i don't miss him and most days a shed a tear for him. This week a bought some new plants to brighten up his area in the garden and i often wish i could have one more day with him. Freddie made me happy seeing his smile and knowing he was happy too. It hurts to know he's gone and i know that i'd give every penny i have to bring him back but that isn't go to happen.
I miss him so much even now 5mths on. However since Albert arrived a sparkle is coming back he is helping me be happy again, it feels almost as if i was supposed to get him, like he was there waiting for a loving home and somehow that ended up being me. He needs me and i needed him, he is beyond cute, this is the first time I've ever had so many piggies 7 now! but i love them all for their different characters and i know that Freddie would want me to give them all a happy life like he had.
So after my day of piggies cuddles and highlights i suddenly felt tears in my eyes again and had a good cry, a feeling i suppose of guilt! How could i be feeling happy without Freddie? a feeling that it is wrong to love Albert so much because it's betraying Freddies memory? I thought if I'm feeling this theres probably plenty of other people feeling like this too. So i wanted to do a post somewhere away from the highlight showcase of Instagram.
It has been 152days since i lost my darling boy Freddie. Not a day goes by where i don't miss him and most days a shed a tear for him. This week a bought some new plants to brighten up his area in the garden and i often wish i could have one more day with him. Freddie made me happy seeing his smile and knowing he was happy too. It hurts to know he's gone and i know that i'd give every penny i have to bring him back but that isn't go to happen.
I miss him so much even now 5mths on. However since Albert arrived a sparkle is coming back he is helping me be happy again, it feels almost as if i was supposed to get him, like he was there waiting for a loving home and somehow that ended up being me. He needs me and i needed him, he is beyond cute, this is the first time I've ever had so many piggies 7 now! but i love them all for their different characters and i know that Freddie would want me to give them all a happy life like he had.
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